Monday, May 10, 2010

D Day Minus 224 (July 27, 2009)

I sat back at my desk after a quick trip down the hall to the vending machines. It was my fifth trip to get contraband that day. It was only 3:00. My head pounded from one of my signature sinus headaches – probably from trying not to think about making travel arrangements. And that damn little patch of poison ivy on my right ankle had spread up my leg. The phone rang the same time I twisted the bottle cap and I almost spilled Diet Mountain Dew on my keyboard. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw it was our Sterling number and reminded myself not to go all RAIN MAN on you.

“Any word?” I asked, putting the contraband on the file cabinet to my left.

"I can do chemo in Virginia.” You were probably sitting at your desk in Morgan’s old bedroom. I could tell by the way your voice kind of stretched when you said 'cheeeeeeemmmoo' that you were reaching to file stuff in your file cabinet.

“How did that happen? When did they call? Have you called Dad? What about Katie? Have you called RAJ’s office to set up chemo here? Do you want me to call Morgan? When can you start? Do you want me to come home? “ I didn’t take a breath. You probably thought– she’s gone all RAIN MAN on me again.

“I called you first.” You were calm. “Kristin, Dr. P’s nurse, is sending the order to RAJ. Treatment will start later this week or Monday next week.”

“This is frikkin awesome news.” I said, thinking of Hannah my guardian angel. Remember I told you about her last April after you told me about your plans to get divorced. When I was six, I couldn’t find the key to my house and I was locked out. I was so afraid I was going to get in trouble and just wanted to get into my house. I kept asking for help. I cried a big snotty cry, while I searched the hiding place (under the toolbox in the shed) for the house key. I’d search for a few minutes, then try to open the back door. I did this about twenty times. Then it just opened. Just like magic. At that moment I decided that I had a guardian angel and her name was Hannah. I smiled and glanced at Hannah’s namesake – the plastic zebra I bought for the Believe in Zebra event last February – standing guard next to my computer monitor.

1 comment:

  1. July 27, 2009 is the day when Willie drove in from Idaho because Ryan and his family was in Utah on Vacation. We all meant at Murray Park and took pictures of everybody - First time since 2005 and the family had grown by 4.

    This while Hannah (zebra)-keeping the Mountain Dew from getting keyboard - LoL...(I remember having to keep that house key by the toolbox)... =)